BROOKS VALENTINE-from loves suicide

Brooks interview.

Hi brooks thank you for joining  us today,

 how are you?

  I'M DOING WELL. WE JUST ARRIVED HOME FROM CHURCH. TREVOR HAD AN EXPLOSION IN HIS DIAPER, SO WE HAD TO LEAVE IN A HURRY.

How are you settling  in to a life out of the forces?

I'VE NEVER BEEN HAPPIER.

Why didn't  you stand up to your brother all those years ago and get your girl? 

AT THE TIME I WAS TOLD SHE HAD NO INTEREST. I TRUSTED MY BROTHER. AFTER I'D SIGNED ON THE DOTTED LINE TO JOIN THE MILITARY I KNEW I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT.

How did you feel  knowing that the girl 

you loved for so long was in the arms of

 your brother? 

 HOW WOULD YOU FEEL? IT KILLED ME. I FELT LIKE I DIDN'T HAVE A REASON TO LIVE. MY HEART WAS CRUSHED, BUT I LOVED THEM BOTH ENOUGH TO WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY.

What is the hardest  choice  you have had to make when it comes to Katy?

 LETTING HER START A LIFE WITH MY BROTHER.

Do you regret  going to join the forces? 

YES AND NO. THINGS HAPPY FOR A REASON. I'VE GOT THE BEST LIFE, AND I DON'T KNOW IF I'D HAVE IT WITHOUT THE STRUGGLES I WAS FACED WITH.

In you heart how did you feel knowing you 

have a beautiful  baby girl, that you 

knew nothing about her? 

THAT WAS DIFFICULT TO WRAP MY HEAD AROUND. KAT WAS RIGHT THOUGH. I WOULDN'T HAVE BEEN ABLE TO HANDLE KNOWING THAT. 

How would you of done things if you found out Katy was pregnant? 

 I COULDN'T HAVE COME HOME. IT'S NOT LIKE THE MILITARY GIVES US WEEKENDS OFF WHEN WE'RE DEPLOYED. I COULDN'T BE THERE, NO MATTER IF I WANTED TO OR NOT. HAD THINGS BEEN DIFFERENT I WOULD HAVE BEEN THERE FROM DAY ONE. THEY'RE ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME.

You are a real sweat heart,  the opposite  of your brother , what makes you so different  from your brother?

 I HAVE NO IDEA. BRANCH, IN MANY WAYS IS JEALOUS. KAT HAS A LOT TO DO WITH THAT. IMAGINE BEING IN HIS SHOES AND KNOWING FROM DAY ONE THAT HE WAS ALWAYS THE SECOND CHOICE.

How did you feel when you came back to find out Katy was married? 

WELL, I WASN'T HAPPY ABOUT IT. I FIGURED SHE'D MOVED ON. I WAS PISSED SHE LIED. I LET HER KNOW IT TOO. LOOKING BACK I GET WHY SHE DID IT. KAT'S NEVER BEEN GOOD WITH CONFRONTATIONS. MY PARENTS DID THEIR BEST, BUT SHE'S ALWAYS HAD PROBLEMS WITH COMMUNICATING.

How did you feel living  your life on the front line knowing that maybe everyday  might be your last?

 I WAS PREPARED FOR THE WORST. I KNEW I MIGHT NOT EVER BE ABLE TO GO HOME AND SEE MY FAMILY AGAIN.

You say you were in love with Katy yet you wouldn't  fight for her you joined the forces rather than go find her why?Surely you should go find her follow your heart?

  LIKE I SAID BEFORE, ONCE YOU SIGN ON THE DOTTED LINE YOU CAN'T GET OUT OF IT. I LOVED HER ENOUGH TO WANT HER TO NOT HAVE TO SUFFER WITH MY BEING SO FAR AWAY. I WANTED HER TO BE HAPPY, EVEN IF IT COST ME A HAPPY ENDING. I LOVED HER ENOUGH TO SACRIFICE MY FUTURE FOR HERS, BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY IT'S HER HAPPINESS THAT BRINGS ME JOY.

Now you have Katy back in your arms, how are you planning  on showing her that she's your heart?

I THINK SHE ALREADY KNOWS IT. IT'S NOT LIKE I'VE BEEN KEEPING IT A SECRET. WE'VE GOT TWO BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN AND A LONG FUTURE AHEAD OF US. 

How are things now with your brother?

WE GET ALONG. HE'S MARRIED AND THEY'RE PLANNING ON ADOPTING A CHILD. HE'S MELLOWED OUT, AND IT WAS IMPORTANT FOR ALL OF US TO LET THE PAST GO. WHAT'S DONE CAN'T BE CHANGED.

Have you forgiven your mother for her lies?

I KNOW WHAT BEING IN LOVE FEELS LIKE. WITH THAT BEING SAID, I KNEW SHE SUFFERED A GREAT LOSS. IT TOOK THAT TO MAKE HER SEE WHAT SHE STILL HAD. I THINK HER OWN DEMONS ARE ENOUGH PUNISHMENT. IF MY DAD COULD GET PAST IT THEN I HAD TO LET IT GO.

How are the little ones?

B IS A MESS. SHE'S A CRAZY LITTLE SPITFIRE, AND THE MOST BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL I'VE EVER SEEN. WE'RE BEST BUDDIES, AND I DON'T SEE THAT EVER CHANGING. KAT WAS RIGHT. B DOESN'T REMEMBER A TIME WHEN I WASN'T IN HER LIFE, AND WE DON'T PLAN ON TELLING HER EITHER. AS FAR AS SHE KNOWS I WAS OVERSEAS WHEN SHE WAS BORN AND CAME HOME TO MARRY HER MOTHER. ALL OF THE OTHER STUFF WILL STAY BURIED.

TREVOR IS A LITTLE HAM. HE'S SO CHUBBY THAT WE CALL HIM ROLLS. WHEN HE SMILES HIS EYES ALMOST DISAPPEAR. I THINK HE LOOKS MORE LIKE KAT, BUT HE DEFINITELY HAS MY EYES AND REMINDS ME OF HIS SISTER WITH HIS CURLY BLONDE HAIR. I ALREADY KNOW I'LL COACH HIM IN SPORTS AND MAKE SURE HE KNOWS HOW TO TAKE CARE OF HIS OWN FAMILY WHEN HE'S OLDER, BECAUSE LET'S FACE IT, THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS TO ME AT THE END OF THE DAY.

Thanks for joining us today BROOKS

THANKS FOR HAVING ME. 

- BROOKS